Trust in the Lord

Wow was I ever hit with a ton of spiritual bricks today. It's like God kept hitting me up one side of the head then the other. Powerful morning. See it all started on Friday, I ate a rotisserie chicken from Costco. Then proceeded to get a migraine. Grr dang chicken. Head pain Saturday then Sunday and Monday. Letting up Tuesday then later in the day started to get a sore throat. What now? Ask some wonderful people to pray. I want to be at my best for Madeline. Surgery is next week.

Wednesday morning sore throat pretty much gone. Feeling good. I spend a good chunk of morning writing my then latest blog post. Thought how long with this take I'll just pop this out puppy then I'll get you a walk. 11 am finally done off on a walk. What a beautiful day. Oh no like 3 minutes into the walk major nausea takes over. I am sick as a dog. Came home and could not eat lunch. Lied around on the couch a good chunk of the afternoon watching a stupid TV show. Then fought with tax papers. Crying and getting so frustrated. Even cursing at God. I texted a friend and said I am having a terrible horrible no good very bad day. Was not in a good head space. I apologized so many time to God for swearing at Him.

So day is coming to an end and I am thinking about my bible study group I am to lead the next day. I say to my husband I don't want to go to Gather tomorrow. I am not in a good head space. But morning comes as it always does. Sleeping on things can be a good thing. Hubby prayed for me before bed too. That is always good. Then in the am I am in a better head space.

I get ready for the day. A lady from my church prays with me every Thursday morning. For my leadership, my table and all of our Gather group. She is a wonderful lady older in life. Much wisdom, and a love for prayer. I share with her about Madeline and my week. She had not heard yet about Madeline. I pour out a bunch of stuff. Then she shares with me something she received as I shared.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:4-9

Wow that really spoke to me. She also shared don't let the enemy trip you up. I think your sickness has been you taking on your daughter and all of this situation. Wham! Another spiritual brick. Also she shared thanking God that He is in control. Wham! Such good words I needed to hear. We both pray and now I am set to go to Gather.

Then at Gather we are doing a teaching by Henry Cloud called The Law Of Happiness. Boy oh boy did today's teaching hit me right between the eye's. “what someone thinks in their hearts so are they” Pr. 23:7 God is bigger then any negative thought or reality. Take ever thought captive. “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2 “ In every circumstance give thanks for this is God's will in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18

So then after the video teaching we sat around our table to delve into discussion. First question “Where do I have negative thinking? What positive thoughts do I need to replace it with?” I started sharing about this week, yesterday and where my head was at. Then how I was so encouraged by this lady I pray with on Thursday mornings before Gather. Now here.

One lady responded with “sing when your mind wanders in a wrong place.” Then another friend shared from the sermon on the weekend. Which I had missed due to migraine. Either living in the flesh or living in the spirit. Pastor Phil had asked everyone to read out loud Romans 8. Which I just did. Powerful stuff in that book. Woo Wee!! Listen to this. “26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.” “28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. “ Then further down, “31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Wow so much good stuff in here. You will need to go read the chapter for yourself. Another lady at my table shared how yesterday around 2 pm I came to mind. What came to mind for her was that I was to trust in the Lord.

So as you can see I have a bit of meat here to chew on. Boy do I ever. Satan you can take a hike! I have God on my side, the Holy Spirit praying for me and a team of prayer warriors lifting me up! God got this! God's got me, Madeline and this situation. Who will be able to separate me from the love of Christ? No one that's who! I needed some spiritual slaps upside the head thank you Jesus!

Oh and I almost forgot some important stuff. Thanks Lord for the reminder. I need an attitude of gratitude. To be thankful in all things. Not some things depending on my situation. But all things! God thank you for Madeline and all we are going through! I know you have got this situation in the palm of your hand. That you love each of us and that all things work together for good for those who love the Lord! I sure do love you. Your the best. Thank you for loving me through all things. Even my rotten attitude yesterday. You are an amazing God! Worthy of all our praise. We need to be praiseworthy no matter what! So when you see me walking down the street with my dog singing to my praise music that's just me loving my dad! Saying it is well with my soul. I don't know how things will go Tuesday but I know who does and that is what counts!

Deborah